Ok so my internet got cut off about a month ago. But this is ok. On the 12th of this month I will have it back again but in my name not his. Also with the internet I will have the home phone in my name which also means getting back my long distance. Soon after everything will be in my name for my house, which shouldn't be too bad considering I finally got the chance to pay off that fucking hydro bill from the shared apartment 4 years ago. Next will be Rodgers but it can wait a bit.

Custody has been mainly figured out. As of May 1st Mark will have his own place and the children will be with him for a week and then with me for a week. We will see how that goes and work from there.

Past my boring bullshit separation details (which there are lots of) much more has been happening with me. Though kids and work take up most of my time I still find time for other bullshit like dealing with my van getting hit right in front of a cop. Plus my freinds and even my mom keeping very close tabs on me, to make sure that I am alright. Things are rough but I am working through everything and will be fine again, so nothing to worry overly about.

Anyways Ash has put on a movie and I should probably go watch it. So luvs and hugs my specials.

Hey one and all. I know I haven't been updating as I should (specialy with having internet back and all). But busy have been I.

Most of you already know about my working for Pizza Pizza since Sept. I started doing part time for some extra money which was just Sat and Sun morrnings then to weekend nights. But a few weeks ago they gave me full time weekdays. It wouldn't have been so bad but just before Christmas was hellishly busy where my off at 7 kept being more like 8:30-9:30. Oh well, it has slowed down now and there are even days when I get to go homw early.

Also since I last updated I have finally been able to pay off a veichle all my own. I got a great deal and for a Ford mini-van it's nice looking. It's even better since Ash was able to help me get a nice sterio in it right away. God the freedom has been amazing. 7.5 years is just too long to go without a car (or van) of my very own.

Oh yeah and Ash now lives in OS.....YAY I have very much so missed my Ashley

So that has been the upside to my life in the past months. The down side right now is my breakup with Mark. I love him so much and I can't picture my life without him by my side. Though I guess we just couldn't make it work. I wish I could explain more but I just can't right now...sorry guys. I will say though that the love and support from my friends is helpping more then any of you know

Ok I guess I have said enough for the moment and I will try and keep better in touch on here.

Luvs and Hugs

Not much time to say this. I have a funeral to go to on Friday. It's a friend I haven't talked to for a while though I am still very sad to know he is gone and we can no longer have those great talks that we once had.

Then on a happier note I shall be going to another friends wedding. I guess it kinda balances things out in it's own way

got to go

Ugh! I know I need to update more. hopefully I will find time soon.

Alright I know it has been close to 2 weeks so atleast let me start off with thanking those who have offered a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on. I am sorry that I didn't respond to any of your messages...though they were greatly apreciated.

So yes it has now been 2 week and 2 days since the death of my grandfather and it has been quite the rollercoster of emotions. I am not getting into it here cause it will either just supreamly piss me off or send me too tears so best to just leave it alone.

As I had also mentioned in my last journal entry my wisdom teeth have been pulled out. I got really really lucky. I barley had any pain after the frezzing wore off and was off of pain killers the next day. I am so thankful that it went as well as it did. I don't think I could have handled grandpas funeral let alone a week with my sister if I had still been in pain.

BTW...if anyone knows of a oart time job I am fianlly really starting to look. I will explain that all though another time.

My time is about up so I luv you guys and hope to see you all very soon.